Oh, and I just realized that this month marks my tenth anniversary with Live Journal. Ten years of ridiculous entries from me, and no one has attempted to kill me yet. That's something, right?
Here's my first entry, dated August 4, 2002:
Okay, this is it...this is the time that I be truthful to myself, accept who i am, and be happy with it. For the past three years, I've been on a quest for truth, trying to discover who I am and to be happy and brave about that to others. The first two years were very unhappy times, punctuated by travels and adventures that I wouldn't give up for anything. Since last October, however, things have gone into hyperdrive, and I think that me and my partner have finally gotten to a place where we can accept things and try to move forward, without everything going unspoken. We'll see. Can I actually be brutally honest about my life? Can I sweep away the shadows?
So, have I done that? Have I been "brutally" honest about my life in the past ten years? Have I swept away the shadows?
Well, I am no longer with Josie, although we're still dear friends. We're divorced, although it took eight years. I've been completely honest with the kids, although that only took...ten years. I'm with Corb, and we've had our ups and downs, but we're still going strong. We could be stronger. We keep working on that.
My brutally honest answer: I have had moments of honesty, I've had moments of dishonesty. I've swept away some shadows, and I've replaced them with other shadows. I've also had a lot of laughs, punctuated by travels and adventures I wouldn't give up for anything.
Hmmm. I might need another ten years to get this right.