He said it as we were driving to grab pizza for a game party that we were having at the apartment.
I’m out of work this week, looking after the kids. Saturday, we went to Canobie Lake, and Sunday, to a great Italian restaurant with Corb’s mother and grandmother. Yesterday, I planned to hold a game party at the party with Pauline and Amber, and invited Chad and Annie over, too.
I could tell that Corb wasn’t happy the minute he returned home from work, around 6:30. He knew that everyone was going to be there. I had warned him about it, well in advance. And I’m sure that it was hard for him to open the door, feeling as he did. Still, he pretty much looked at everyone and then walked into his bedroom, to change.
Which is why I deliberately asked him to go with me to pick up the pizza, so that we could have some alone time.
“Annie told Kathy that she thinks I’m spoiled and used to getting my own way, and that has to change,” he said. In my head, I questioned why Kathy would take it upon herself to stir the shit like that, but if Annie really did say it, it does seem terribly ungrateful, considering the fact that she has to realize that Corb’s feeling down about things.
“I’ve been worried that this might be a problem between us,” I said to him. “I don’t want that to happen, Corb.”
“I don’t think it will,” he said. “I’m only saying that if anything would, it’d be that. That’s all.”
I know he’s been feeling really down about things, lately. I can see him, playing the Sims, and I know it’s a way to work out his stress, but even so, I wish I could find a way to make him happier about things.
Or, better yet, find another job for him. That’s what he really wants, about now. A way out. I wish I could get that for him. That would make it easier, for me, too.
I’m happy for Annie, but I just want Corb to have a happy ending, too.
In any event, it made for an uncomfortable night. Corb went to bed early, claiming he had to go to work tomorrow, early in the morning. He’s been going to bed early a lot, lately.
I’m certain that this is just a bump in the road, because this is the man that I want to spend the rest of my life with. Even through all this, the commitment and love I have for him hasn’t wavered, not one bit.