Snapshots from Green Victoria (tedwords) wrote,
Snapshots from Green Victoria
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Pressure

Peter wrote to me today. His landlord's raising his rent and he's going to be forced to move back onto the Kingston campus.

Although I suppose an option is to propose moving in with him, I really feel ambivalent about this. I think that the better course is to move out on my own and not get too heavily involved with any one person for at least a year. My whole life since I was 17 has been one of intense commitment--first Steven, and then, Josie. Yes, Peter and I have now been seeing each other (dating) for about five months, but I don't want to go any farther than that. I need to focus on standing on my own two feet and staying connected with Josie and the kids in this new role--first and foremost. There are a lot of important bridges to cross these next few months.

It's been very hard to focus this past week. Last week was a distraction--and a welcome one--but you can't hide from reality. I feel really torn.
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